UNhappily falling victim to the evil sword of Java....

And I still wonder why we have to understand computers and not the other way round.

With CNY being around the corner, I really pray that my grandma will recover in time. She loves crowds and such festivals so I guess she will be super happy with the gatherings. Although I'm not looking forward to meeting my family, but I really pray that my grandma can be there.

I have 2 more cousins getting married this year.. back to back. One in April and one in May. Guess it has something to do with my grandma's illnesses. It's none of my business anyway.

I think I have grown cold when it comes to my family. But who can blame me? They brought me up this way. I used to feel hurt when I was young, during family gatherings or even the so-called "cousins lunch" last year. They grew up together and I came too late. So there wasn't and still isn't Joycelyn in the picture. But I've grown up and grown cold.
I hate it when my mother tells me about the things happening to them. I hate it when my mom refers them as my "jie jie" or "kor kor". I hate it when they correct the way I talk, the things I do and how I live my life. Who are they to judge me, to advise me? They don't even know me.
So what if they are getting married? So what if my uncle's son is working in Beijing? So what? Except for the name and the blood, I'm not connected to them at all.

Who cares? They brought me up this way anyway.