I miss Dunman High alot. SP isn't that bad but it isn't that good either. Don't worry. I'm not disappointed with the school I chose. I'm pretty satisfied there, considering the fact that I expected to work hard there and true enough, I learnt that I have to work hard there... But it's the atmosphere and the people. Maybe it's my fault that I kind of refuse to open fully to them. Things just feel strange there.

And it's the case for SPNP cell. And now that Royston's thinking of moving cell to NP permanently, I need to rethink of staying there. No, I'm not mean in this sense that I'm being territorial. Just that you can say that I join because of friends. And according to Ben Tan, it isn't a bad thing coz friends provide you with emotional support. In this case, spiritual support too. With the move, we might lose Clara coz there's a distance problem and Jeremy coz he is territorial. And the move's happening now... When I'm actually evaluating whether it's safe to open myself to this cell. Guess the answer's very clear now. I can't open up to this cell. All these weeks, I shared because of the presence of Vinnie, Serene, Jeremy, Johnny & Clara, people whom I know who genuinely care for me. If Jeremy & Clara leave, then I'll close up more. If that's the case, I rather return to Joanna's cell where there's REAL fellowship. I'm praying now. That God will lead me to the fellowship where He has called me to.

I've got 3 choices of CCA now. 1)String Esemble. Practices for violin are on Thursdays. Haha.. Another sign from God leave SPNP cell?? 2)Theatre Compass. I love drama & theatre but they have an unknown instructor and no prospects. 3)Modern Dance. My dancing "career" ended at early sec4 year. Been rather out-of-shape but somehow, this is the only CCA where practice schedule satisfies me. HAHA!!